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Monday, May 11, 2009
haiz.. keep thinking of shila lately. after her accident, i cant even keep myself concerntrate at werk. even though she have a fuck up attitude, i still love her like the rest of my sisters. i wonder how is she doing rite now. whether she is sleeping or enduring the pain. sometimes i juz cant avoid not visiting her at the hospital. my family might think dat i didnt care but the truth is, i cant accept the fact dat my sister is lying in pain with her face not looking the same as she used to have. i'm kindda sensitive so i cant see all this things happen to my family. even during the time my paternal grandma pass away in the middle of the night, i have to pretend dat i'm sleepy coz i cant see her wen she is no longer breathing n no matter how i try to wake her up, her soul is no longer there. so i have to mantain my ego by pretending to sleep wen i'm actually crying and blaming god for taking her away..
so i juz have to wait for shila at hme wen she comes back. feel sad for mohd also. heard dat his condition is worst. i juz cant look at them in dat state. i will cry u noe! so dun ever force me to visit them at the hospital! anyway, hope dat they get well soon. n i dun noe why all these muz happen after they being kind enough to go through trouble helping me n ayg get a bike.
anyway, after dis incident, i told ayg to ride carefully. if he said he is sleepy, i will forbid him riding. everytime i pillioned his bike, i cant keep my mind off shila's accident.
my wedding is 7 mths away n i hope me n ayg will get married as planned. n after dat, i want him to sell off his bike n drive a car instead. i cant bear to handle such accidents again..
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Monday, May 04, 2009
god lucky my blog is for my own viewing only.. erm except for the 3rd sister of mine. sebok jelah. nak mencarut pon susah kene jaga imej seorg kakak yg baik.. eh gi mampos lah ako peduli hapa! hehehe one day i want to have my own account. only my hubby can read. ceh ceh!
3 more hours to go before i finally kick off from dis stupid fake marble counter, go hme and listen to misteri jam 12 and scare myself off to sleep. weee! at least i'm not like someone who love to imagine kakak cantek peeping at her from the door or standing one corner looking at her. ape saje lah budak tu.. (who noe who i'm refering to)
but right now, i juz cant stand with the fact that i have to go thru another 3 hrs controlling my breathing. wan to noe y?? sometimes i wonder how do ppl have very bad feet odour without them realising it. OMG! u guys dunnoe wat i'm going thru behind this counter. i'm smiling but at the same time smelling some smelly feet.
i have dis myanmar girl doing her attachment at the hotel i'm werking at. in fact, she is rite next to me cutting papers where i'm typing this blog. hope dat she is honest enuf not to take a peek at my monitor. sometimes wen she gets near me i woul juz get ready to minimize this page.. hehehe scared lah later ppl hurt how? she dun want to fren me anymore.
i've actually asked almost everybody whether they are facing the same problem as i am. carol said she cant smell. i tink she have a 'forever blocked nose' halifi didnt notice. jariah did smell wen she was changing uniform wit her today. azan said that maybe it is due to wat she eats everyday dat produces this smell. but gosh!! IT WAS SO STICKY dat i cant breathe!!
ok2 before she saw my posting, its better dat i log out!! ciao!
3 more hours to go before i finally kick off from dis stupid fake marble counter, go hme and listen to misteri jam 12 and scare myself off to sleep. weee! at least i'm not like someone who love to imagine kakak cantek peeping at her from the door or standing one corner looking at her. ape saje lah budak tu.. (who noe who i'm refering to)
but right now, i juz cant stand with the fact that i have to go thru another 3 hrs controlling my breathing. wan to noe y?? sometimes i wonder how do ppl have very bad feet odour without them realising it. OMG! u guys dunnoe wat i'm going thru behind this counter. i'm smiling but at the same time smelling some smelly feet.
i have dis myanmar girl doing her attachment at the hotel i'm werking at. in fact, she is rite next to me cutting papers where i'm typing this blog. hope dat she is honest enuf not to take a peek at my monitor. sometimes wen she gets near me i woul juz get ready to minimize this page.. hehehe scared lah later ppl hurt how? she dun want to fren me anymore.
i've actually asked almost everybody whether they are facing the same problem as i am. carol said she cant smell. i tink she have a 'forever blocked nose' halifi didnt notice. jariah did smell wen she was changing uniform wit her today. azan said that maybe it is due to wat she eats everyday dat produces this smell. but gosh!! IT WAS SO STICKY dat i cant breathe!!
ok2 before she saw my posting, its better dat i log out!! ciao!
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Sunday, May 03, 2009
super fucking angry sia!! a woman just stole my money but don want to admit!!! who want to admit stoling ur money sia! and its only within half an hr and my notes gone!!
my mistake for my carelessness but for god sake at least dun steal FUCK ASS!!
i'm super duper angry n i hate to say it but for my own info of wat had happened is... i was on my break. and, i need to pee. so i went into the toilet, place my wallet, hp and ciggys in front of the mirror and left the toilet for my nap. it was half an hr nap wen i suddenly approached by a trainie dat she found my stuff inside the loo. i was not that shock as at least she is honest enuf to pass it back to me. but then, i feel like checking my money, a few notes left for me to spend for the rest of the month. and guess wat? ITS EMPTY!!. MOTHERFUCKER CIBAI WHO TOOK DAT MONEY!!! so i asked the trainie who found it and she said that the moment she found it, its already empty.. wow my blood was boiling!! the only person i can suspect now is a china room attendant who was having her break as well at that time. not to accuse anyone, with the help of the technician, i'm able to view the cctv. and juz as i thot. its dat bloody china woman. she's the only one who entered that toilet before the trainie went in. i cant control my anger i went to the housekeeping dept and look for her n confronted her. but china woman cant speak english dun understand wat i said. translations pls..... n of coz, she didnt admit. her face looks like she was pissed being accused of stealing but hey u fucking china woman, i am more pissed by ur stupid trying to be innocent face. well, cant spend that money which i've save up for my meals. its all gone! btw, y didnt she take all the coins too huh stupid idiotic woman!! go back to ur stupid country n stop stealing money in spore.. n i'm cursing u for spending my hard earn money!!
i dun want to tell ayg abt dis coz if i do, he will nagged on how careless i am. n dat really make my anger worst!!
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