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Sunday, October 21, 2007
good morning starshine! earth says hello!
haha! juz come back from my last midnight shift of the week. so tiring but its ok i'm fine though. feels great last nite wen i blow off this bloody asshole human being who tried their best to check in without any IC. wat the fuck sia. they think i will let them off easily? they can kiss my ass! haha! feel sorry for making them feel irritated yesterday but i'm doing my job.
i really dun quite realise that dis few season i get irritated and mad easily. and i mean very easy. during mood swings, it gets even worse but really, its out of my control. i've been like dis ever since before i knew ayg. easy said, ever since i'm with dis mangkok known as sakai. well, he is a matrep and i thought i might had been influenced by his life. u noe, they kinda pissed off easily over small little things. and my character realli change. i dare to blow people off wen they make me unhappy. even if sakai pissed me, i blew his head off too. dats why i think i'm not scared with anybody anymore. aside from my siblings especially mira who will describe me as a fierce sister of her who will really shout in her frightened innocent face wen she did something that really rises my temperature.
yeah there it goes. i cant control my anger. even strangers who purposely hit my butt in a crowded place, i will really looked back and " hoi! c***i !" and to those irritating sleepyheads in a train who will doze off any second gonna lie onto my shoulder i will definitely hit them by the side to wake them up.
so, i'm not like those dumber who will put her head down and do wat as she was told without even thinking that others are trying to fool her. maybe that was before and someone did changed my life. but the disadvantage is, i must not go to far by losing respect to others especially ayg. throughout my relationship with him, i've been scolding and raising my voice to him which i noe it is completely wrong! i've been too demanding and too strict towards him. but still, hanging on for the sake of love. its true wat he always told me. if i'm with other guy, he might had leave me coz of my attitude. i really damn appreciate his sacrifices. i cant imagine how my life will be like without someone like him.
but i'm sure one day, he will adapt to who i am and wat i am and i think he already did. the end.
ceh2. ending dah mcm novel lak. klah dozing off now.. zzzzzzzz
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