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Friday, March 09, 2007
feeling fucking sucks today. do i have to call myself an evil witch? y am i so mean towards a person who reali loves me so much? maybe i keep thinking abt my past n i'm not going to let anymore guys taking any advantage of me. i've been so nice before n i'm not going to have someone climb onto my head.
but wats past is past rite? i cant always think dat i might being fooled again. no i dont think so. i do hope he reali understand dat wat i had done has a reason behind it. i dont want myself to get hurt. n i cant help to wait for wat's unexpected.
i knew i had ask for separation once. its not bcoz dat i dun love him but i have to see my future at its best state in his hand. i have to choose a rite person. i'm willing to sacrifice if it concerns my future.
the next thing is, i'm tired of arguements. dilemma in which i have to concern 2 hearts. him and my mum. why do we have to argue whenever i have to listen to my mum? ayg, if u are reading dis, i hope wat i've let out here to make some sense to u. i do reali love u n i'm always there for u but i cant be physically always there nxt to u. i'm sick of the quarrels we had due to dat problem n i had to be the victim of ur anger coz i'm not there beside u. haiz... i reali cant say anymore n i noe u're aware of dis problem. i juz have to let god to quicken our marriage so dat i dun have to go thru dis kind of difficulties anymore.
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