eNtRy gUe
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
going back to live on my own life. cant seem to trust anyone. tried to but sometink keep happening behind my back. i dont want to find out wat it is coz i dont want to noe! wat for i'm going to look for pain rite?
my life is changing. how do i say? losing dat grip? ya i suppose. tried to hold on but he is playing games wit me. playing hide n seek? so i dun tink i'm going to fly any higher. gravity might pull me down to earth. no use of hoping for sometink u worth dream of.so i will juz fly neutrally while keep hanging on to the branches of the trees around me.
today, my past seems to be calling me back. isit coincidence or .... i guess god wan to turn around the wheels. wat goes around comes around. so, meaning sometink reali happening behind my back n god wans me to do the same ting.
my long lost 'scandal' is back! he did remember me afterall. so are we gona keep back in contact or juz be as it is.. its been a year! those grinding reali gave me a short flashback. haha! n out in the blue moon, sakai called me. i'm juz wondering why is he so stubborn wit all the warnings he gets from me? well, i had no choice. even if i change my number a thousand times, he will still keep track on tracking me. i tink my forehead had been choped as sakai's ex wherever i go.
wen wil i get a decent life?? will somebody help me to guide my way?? pls God! dun smash my heart again. i juz wan to be treasured and feel special. rite now, i dun tink i'm feeling dat way coz everyting was jumbling all over.
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