haizzz... i'm slacking now. ayg had gone to werk. he was here wit me at my werkplace accompany me since i started my shift. now dats sometink most guys wont do to their girlfrens.

i can see ayg reali love me so much. sometimes i feels dat he was overcontrolling me which gets me frustrated at times. well u noe, i'm the kind who can show tantrums if i feel i'm being controlled. even my parents have to let me have my freedom no matter wat. sometimes i feel like i'm already sumone's wife. i dont spend much time outside but at werk and wit him. can go out wit my frens like i used to be, cant go anywhere i feel like to and etc.

even there's dis 'hamba Allah' told me to think twice whether to continue my relationship with him. " baru matair dah control camni, kalau dah kahwin camner agaknyer" dats wat he said which keep me thinking.

BUT, wen i think abt it, it shows dat he reali love me and not wanting to lose me. dats wat i see. he's been the one who had been saving our relationship from drowning. he sacrificed alot though.

n i appreciate him alot. God had given me dis load of love to me which wat i've wanted in my life.

in 3 mths, i'll be engaged wit him.. cant wait for the big day. and 2 years after dat, we will be geting married and live together under one roof and make baby.. heeee

Hope we will stay on hold together till death do apart us.. Amen