eNtRy gUe
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
i need to be alone. ya dats it. i need to calm everyting down. i noe i shudnt have did dat but i have no choice. better to be silent rather than putting on gasoline to a flame. i want to explain but i might be judge as always being the right one. i cant seem to let go of my thots.
gosh, dis cramp i have is kiling me!
i'm losing trust. losing confident i had in him. is he not reali prepared or he juz want to spend his younger days some more? i noticed him. his guiltiness kept me uneasy.
lets be more straight forward now. i noe he didnt notice me noticing him. wat do u tell if he is hiding things he typed to a girl in msn? typing things wen i left the room n minimize it wen i'm around. going to chatrooms looking for more contacts. still have the urge to have more females contacts in his list of frens in frenster n to make things worst, changed his status so dat girls dun mind be fren with him n more attractive if he has his pic standing behind the bar?. so does dis tells me dat he is not prepared to reveal his true status to everyone? why muz he denied abt all dis by telling me i am the only one in his heart but no one else?
he neglected abt work coz of spending too much time in chatroom meeting new ppl the whole nite. meeting ppl without having my acknowledge n perhaps, he might meet more chatters in the future.
so, how am i suppose to be confident dat he is faithful to me? i had enuf af all dis. i guess i will do it my way. i can go out and mit my long lost frenz, go anywhere i wanted to n be like wat i'm used to be before. its notink wrong rite as long i always had him in my heart. to be fair n no pressure to both parties. he wud be very happy to get his freedom back n so do i.
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