eNtRy gUe
Monday, December 31, 2007
wat a bad weekend i had. its really bad dat i myself cant tolerate wit. i almost lost dis relationship. i dun noe whether i am the problem here or its our problem dat i cant face. it is sad to say dat we dun have dat anger management. showing temper at each other, not letting out wat we actuali dun feel happy about. we always had the thinking dat others can read our mind.
juz keeping silent wont let everyting at ease but in fact, heating up the situation. dats our weakness. a weakness which we did talked about how to overcome but in the end, nothing was applied when it comes to the real thing. thereafter, same things occured.
in dis picture, i had the higher level of egoism. i always noe i am rite but wen he is wrong, i will say dat causes fire out of the flame. wen he is wrong, he will admit but put it as he is giving in. i noe i cant change him coz dats how he was brought up. i tried not to let it out hurting his feelings. but wen i didnt let it out, it caused pressure inside me n wen its going to burst, instead of letting it out in a positive way, in turns to negative. therefore, the war began.
i cant tell how far dis thing will go on dat way. its too frustrating to have my relationship as if like both of us were scooping out buckets of water throwing it out from a sinking ship in a strong tide not letting it drowned by the big waves.
juz keeping silent wont let everyting at ease but in fact, heating up the situation. dats our weakness. a weakness which we did talked about how to overcome but in the end, nothing was applied when it comes to the real thing. thereafter, same things occured.
in dis picture, i had the higher level of egoism. i always noe i am rite but wen he is wrong, i will say dat causes fire out of the flame. wen he is wrong, he will admit but put it as he is giving in. i noe i cant change him coz dats how he was brought up. i tried not to let it out hurting his feelings. but wen i didnt let it out, it caused pressure inside me n wen its going to burst, instead of letting it out in a positive way, in turns to negative. therefore, the war began.
i cant tell how far dis thing will go on dat way. its too frustrating to have my relationship as if like both of us were scooping out buckets of water throwing it out from a sinking ship in a strong tide not letting it drowned by the big waves.
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