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Saturday, December 22, 2007
mY pAst pt 2
dis is the part 2 of my past. well, talking abt the mat beside me, its normal. so we've met up n proceed to my fav club, tunnel!! n of coz i can see the the jealousy face from adek angkat kak ana wen he sees me wit hezri. too bad man. jgn shiok sendiri k. haha!
through halfway in the club, kak ana suddenly pulled me n introduced me to her guy's little brother who kak ana never mentioned abt. guess wat?? dat guy is the mat i sat nxt to juz now in the train!. haha! n of coz he teased me, 'tak bawak buku?' hmmm.. perli nampak.
we get along pretty well . i tot dat will be the end but the next day, he msg me. obviously, he took my number from kak ana. he came to my block wanted to see me. so dats wen our relationship started. it was sweet at first. in the morning on every weekend, he always wait for me under my void deck n we will go b'fast together. we met everyday even wen i wanted to go to the shp downstairs or bored at home, i will call him down to meet me. he introduced me to his family n spent sometimes over at his place.
after 6 mths, everything start to turns sour. he's always wit his werk n neglected me. i only spend time wit him at his place during his day off or his free time. wen i talked to him abt it, he will juz said dat he needs to werk in order to have money to go out wit me. but hey! everyone else do werk but still spend time wit their love ones not like him who had never take me out ever since i get to noe him. he always accused me having another affair for no reason. n wen he had to werk for one day not allowed to go back, he will accused me meeting other guys wen he is not around. wit all dis arguement, my love grew thinner. 2 days be my b'day, we quarrel again at his place. dis time i juz leave his house without a word. we did not contact each other the whole nite. on my b'day, not even his msg wishing me happy b'day. i was so furious dat i take dat its over between me n him. the day after, wen he called to check on me, i juz say dat our relationship has ended. he was mad wit my decision n accused me of having a scandal dat caused dis breakup. i juz hung up feeling great to have my freedom back.
a few days later, he msg me wanting me n begging me to take him back. but by then, there is no more feelings towards him n its impossible to have him back to my life. but he never gave up. he msg me almost everyday to check how am i doing n wanting to wait for me to open my heart for him. 'u are meant for me, i'm sori to neglect u n always put priority to my werk, i'm willing to change for u, i cant forget u' dats wat he always said to me to win my heart.
after awhile, i had a new guy, a few mths later, we broke up, new guy again, broke up again. everytime i bumped into him, it will be a different guy i am wit. nevertheless, he still wait for me. at one time, i do tink of giving him another chance since he willing to wait for me for almost 3 years even he saw me wit so many guys.
one nite, i called him dat i want to meet him. wit the happiness to his voice, he waited for me at my void deck. he brought me to dis place where we 1st met after the clubbing nite. he recapped on some of the things he missed so much abt me. like how he stopped me from scratching my body coz he noes i had a sensitive skin. i will leave some marks on my body wen i scratch. he noes i love to drag my slippers wen i walked. he way i always nagged at him wen he did sometink wrong.
wenever he tried to hold me, i will move back coz i noe i cant love him anymore. after dat, he bought me my fav drink n send me to my doorstep like he used to do. he kissed my forehead n said dat he was hoping dat he will meet me again. i juz smiled n turn away coz i noe dat will be my last time meeting him.
the nxt morning, he called me saying dat he was at my void deck n wanted to bring me 4 b'fast. but i juz turn him down. all he wanted was to see my face. but i stay firm not wanting t see him.
a year later, i told him dat i had found the right guy n i'm getting engaged. he sounds sad n told me to tink abt it again. i mean wat i said n told him to forget me. but he rebelled. until the nite wen we bumped n he saw me wit him. he juz smiled n dat was the last time i heard from him.
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