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Sunday, December 03, 2006
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haaiizzzz..... if ever i cud say 'im sorie' to him. dis is wat u kol 'egoistic'. as wat he said, 'dua2 tanak mengalah'. i reali didnt mean to raise my voice at him but i juz cant control my anger lah. even though both of us are at fault, i guess i shud juz give in. tapi ape ako dah uat tadi siang sape2 pon takleh accept.
we quarrel at ct hall juz now. punca nyer, he was quiet all the way even i ask him y but he juz said notink. he tot i can read his mind. mood hilang siol nak jalan kalau dier camtu so i decided dat we juz stop n go back hme rather den i see his face like dat. maybe he's too tired i dun noe. i juz took my bag he was carrying feeling pissed wit the face he showed me. mane tau dier penat bawak.
we started to argue n i juz shouted at him which i noe i shud not have done. dis short-tempered attitude muz stop. i dun like dis kind of behaviour i did to my ayg. dah ampai jek control stn, ako punyer lah KURANG AJAR ako tepis tangan dier biler dier hulor tangan untok ako salam n juz walk in. kalau ako kene gitu pon ako peng sak. biler dah naik train aru ako rase menyesal. mcm nak patah alek jek mintak maaf tapi ako rase mesti dier dah blah. walaowei! i reali hate myself!
ampai skg dier tak kol ako. ako tau dier marah ngan perangai ako tapi ako betol2 tak niat siol nak uat camtu. ako cepat binget. but i noe he wil cool off n forgive me. alamak.. type nyer type cam nak jatoh jek airmate ako. lek2... reali hope he can forgive me.
AND TO MYSELF, nid to improve more on my behaviour. cuba lah jadi org yg penyabar siket. but i oways said to him, 'im a very impatient person' but, but, but, impatient in a correct way ok. ceh2 nasihat sendiri. kesian.... anytink JUZ THINK N BEHAVE POSITIVELY..
k ako nak blah gi tgk crite P.Ramlee ampai tetido. tengkiu!
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